Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Crap weekend

Shittiest week ever!! I got off of work on Thursday morning and my mom's dog had peed all over my NEW and EXPENSIVE bedding. Because of working full time at night and going to school all day everyday I have really made an effort to make my room a sanctuary and try to keep it clean, so that I can enjoy my sleep and not get frustrated with my own mess. So dealing with Great Dane pee on my new bed after a crappy shift and three hours of sleep between two days of school and two nights of work wasn’t fun!
Then after work on Friday morning, I kept hearing a glug-glug-glug sound. Knowing that I don’t live in a Robert Munsch book I went to investigate and slipped in the three inches of water that were flooding my laundry room. Then as I was headed back up the stairs to awaken my parents and tell them of this misfortune I stepped in some more water that was coming from my mom’s office. I discovered that a pipe had burst was water was seeping through the wall. WHAT A MESS!!! Thank the Good Lord above for house insurance. And thank Him also that I work nights, because now my sister and I are sharing a bed (and a room) due to water damage in her bathroom and closet. After all of the cleaning crew, maintenance people and insurance tycoons left our house (at about 9pm Friday night) we watched a movie. Just as the end credits started to roll there was a power outage about 4 by 10 blocks on our side of Mission. WHAT A NIGHTMARE. My brother and I, tired of sitting in a cold and dark house, did what we do best. We went to Rocko’s for nachos and milkshakes!
Saturday wasn’t a total bust. I got to see Nicole, Nantina and Amber and Jars Of Clay---KILLER concert sooo good. I laughed, I cried, I rocked out and generally just had fun.
This leads me to the saddest news yet; even as I type this I am brushing the tears from my face. My dog Zeke has bone cancer. I took him to the vet last week and they had no clue what was going on and wanted to do X-rays that I couldn’t afford. So my mom gave me the number of a woman that she knows and she looked at him and gave me the bad news. There is a chance that he could get better, but right now he just lays in the front hall and does nothing, so things don’t look so good. He is on painkillers and anti-inflammatories.

So yeah, that was my weekend. When it rains it pours….
I need a vaction, did you hear that God?? A VACATION!!

Monday, February 19, 2007

Generally Frustrated

So I went to Parkside yesterday. Soooo good, I love it! (There you go Steve, your "I love Parkside" comment--happy now?) I was sad that Scott didn't preach, as I love his preaching but Aaron’s sermon hit home for me too. I have been struggling a lot lately with how I relate to God and what it is exactly that I believe in. I've been trying to prioritize and "get my ducks in a row" but this has lead to just general frustration. I'm not where I want to be in any way. Aaron’s sermon was on what you love more than God, and he talked about the rich young ruler that Jesus told to sell everything and give all the money to the poor. And here is the answer to my question, I love boys more than I love Jesus and I love the possibility of a relationship more than I love sitting down and spending time with my creator. If you knew me you would know that I've always been the friend that guys have and you would know that I've never had a decent relationship. I'm not the prettiest or the skinniest or even the most talented and sometimes I can just be, well, awkward. I'm just your average girl with nothing special to offer. I'm not exceptionally witty or fun to be with and I get frustrated at the dumbest things. I've never been the one that is pursued or chased or adored. So why do I keep trying? I just found out that I no longer know any single boys. My last single guy friend has found a girlfriend. But there is something that still won't dye, a monster within me that won't let go of the dream of a relationship. So how do I give this up, kill this dream and take hold of the love of Christ--it may be the only love I'll ever know.
It seems that I'm always waiting. Always waiting for something. Waiting to finish College, waiting to leave this continent, waiting for that special relationship and I'm STINKING TIRED OF WAITING.
I gave God an ultimatum last night, I told Him that either He lets me go to Africa now or He finds me a relationship. I quickly re-negged. Who am I to give Him an ultimatum? What does that prove except that I'm not mature enough for either. BAAAAAA can you smell my frustration? I can.
Why can't I just leave? Why do I always have to watch others get what they want?


Anyways, that's enough ranting for now, Maybe I'll feel better in a day or two....

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Okay, I found some more interesting things that you might not know about me.

1) I LOVE cleaning random things, like chair legs and around sinks and the metal part that is on top of the shower door and underneath blow dryers and door handles. The rest can stay messy for all I care.

2) Often I think what life would be like in an opposite universe, like what would happen if green meant stop and red meant go, that sort of thing.

3) I always have a pair of emergency socks in the trunk. Seriously folks, its true.

4) I dance in my underwear (with the door shut and locked ofcourse)

thats all for now!

Friday, February 09, 2007

6 wierd things about me...

6 Weird Things You May or May Not Have Known About Me (or were afraid to know)


1. HATE BANANAS---Can't stand them. Not the taste, smell or texture. I have to do everything in my power not to puke when I am around them, especially the mush ones **shudders**

2. I sleep with 5 blankets and five pillows and I have the window open. I like the weight of the blankets but I don't like how warm they make me. I like to sleep with two pillows under my head, one in my arms, one between my feet and the other one at my back like a baby. Wow, I'm pretty high maintenance!!

3. A dog isn't a dog unless they are BIG. And I mean BIG. (Sorry Nicole)

4. I'm really good at startng projects and never completing them. Under my bed and in my closet lurks the proof of that.

5. I've NEVER been to the zoo. But I am going on Sunday!!

6. hmmmmmm.....I love pink!!


that's all I got. Sad I know. Maybe if I come up with a good one I will repost it. Oh! Here's one I've never been to Disneyland!! How's that?

Monday, February 05, 2007

YAY


I got my nose pierced!! YAY!! So excited!!